You know, i feel like slapping someone. Although she's my friend. But then again. I don't feel like it. Because the other person is 1800-i-think-i-am-the-man!

You don't say things that you don't mean.
Example, you don't say I will love you forever/ i want be with you forever.
Because, First of all. There is no such thing as forever. You're gonna die in like 80 years. That ain't forever. That's just 8 decades.
Secondly, You're fucking 16. You don't want to be stuck with your first for like eternity? If that's even possible.
Thirdly, You become responsible for what you say. I know i seem to be promoting irresponsibilty and the irony is i hate irresponsible people. ( prolly myself included )
Whenever things don't go smooth. The other person finds the loophole and tries to figure out how to turn it around in order to "win." If you get what i'm saying. It's just not right to say things like that. Even if you feel like it's gonna happen at that moment. Just those words; Becomes a commitment.

Sometimes i don't understand why, When it fucking hurts you keep droning and droning about it. I mean, yeah. But you have to have a certain limit. Ok maybe not. cos it is your blog and i can't do anything about. But you say all these and you act another way. It's being AA. And really, it's like tryna get sympathy. You've got so much sympathy and yet you act a whole other way. I just wish you fucking get over it and just start your life afresh. Don't be pathetic in hanging on. It's really stupid. The girl fucking doesnt want you anymore. If you did understand, you'd prolly left a long time ago. Sparing the hurt and pride.